woahz,... was reading my archives recently and like my posts were REALLY long last time! like SUPER the very... like way longer than nw haha... dunno wad happened oso... hmm anyway i see y alot of pple stopped reading my blog cos the entries too long :p oh dear tml is phys ct and im like going to die ok... my gravitation and electric fields totally cannot make it!!!like wahlao lah... time to fail man... i hope i dun fail too badly... i still cant find someone to go shopping with me for sp presents! time is running out!! stupid fun-o-rama... all my ac frens end so late now!!! ac sucks! haha... oops. anyway... my eye is super pain now... i dunno y,... and its so late but i cant sleep cos my daddy is not home yet! and i need to ask him to drive me tml... arghzzz... i really need someone to shop with me!! haha... had a nice long chat with zareen today... was nice to tok to her again after so long! miss all of them so much man... oh wells nvm i asked daniel liao haha... yay the worst thing abt moving hse is tt there is no more back up plan if daddy cannot drive me to sch!! ahh haha... oh found out my SAT result today... qt grateful lah... got wad i was aiming to get so yah qt happy... praise the Lord man... cos i really thot i screwed up big time :) yah... but it seems like qt alot of pple did well so tts good... argh tml got trg after test and its like such a funny time! got time to do nothing cos not enough time to eat haha... manz... im glad marcel can concentrate on swimming now tho...pple seem to like studying tgt haha... tts all i will say :p oh started on purpose driven life haha... its ok i guess at least better than doing qt by the "random flipping mtd" and i got some insights yst... been thinking for qt long abt y did God create man? i mean wads the pt rite... when He knows tt we will sin against Him and kill His Son and all... James kinda talked to me abt it before but like i guess i din really understand... but yst in the book it was saying tt God created man cos God is love and He created man so tt He can love us... not tt He needs us cos there si the Trinity and all but cos He wanted to express His love and so he made us... i think its really qt true, and really just shows how much God loves all of us! its amazing that He would do tt... its like He gave so much for us... for me! and what am i... i sin and i say i will change but i dun and i just live my life the way i always did, sinning against the Lord and thinking that i am a good person its really bad lah... i felt really repentant after tt... hope it stays... oso recently my frens been saying tt my tongue is really sharp and sometimes i say things tt i shldnt and i guess they are rite... and u noe i was reading James like one night after they said it and it was like how if u think u are religious and yet u do not watch the words u speak, your religiousness counts for nothing... and it really spoke to me cos i know tt sometimes i do think tt im qt religious which is not a very good thot in the first place but yah i do... and yet i do this kinda thing... qt sobering lah... anyway just glad tt God showed me all this... will try to change!!! i love you Lord and i lift my voice to worship you...